"...that the Lord hath made. I will rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24
This is also the day I saw another specialist. Today I saw a liver specialist about the mass on my liver. Knowing you have a mass on an organ is an unsettling feeling. Having conflicting radiologist reports as to what that mass is, doesn't help any. So, instead of waiting, I went to a liver specialist. Today, I feel better. I am actually totally confident in Dr. Dies. He has me set up for an MRI next week. He's pretty sure it's not cancer, but because it is causing some discomfort, he will decide after the MRI if the mass needs to be removed. Now I can just focus on taking care of my baby boy.
My 15 month old had to have surgery Friday. Little boy urology surgery, but as a parent, no surgery is routine. Everything turned out fine, he is just still a little fussy and sore, but once again God answered prayers and took good care of my baby. However, I do believe those were the longest 1 1/2 hrs of my life waiting for him to come out of surgery. While waiting, I noticed something. I did not have hives. I began to think back and the few days before and day of my breast surgery, I had hardly any hives. I take comfort in this little realization. Kind of like the footprints in the sand, in times of extreme stress, my hives go away. God has it under control and knows how much I can handle. He is carrying me through, even now.
This is also the day I read an article about this famous young actor killed in a car crash. So sad. What tore my heart out was what the article had to say. He was in all the Jack*** movies and what he was most famous for I just can't write on here. How unbelievably sad. This man lived on this earth for 30 or 40 something years and that's all the media had to say about him?! "Man, he was funny." He only had a few brief years to live on this earth, and that's what he did? Make people laugh by doing extremely stupid stuff. Now, I realize that was just the media recapping his life of fame, and truly hope he was a Christian and was putting as much time and effort into his home in eternity as he was in making people laugh. We won't live forever, folks. Young people die every day. Some people are under the false belief that they can "have fun" now, and give their life to God when they get older. It doesn't work that way. Today could be your last day on earth.
"And He said to them, "Take heed and beware of covetousness, for one's life does not consist in the abundance of the things he possesses." Then He spoke a parable to them, saying: "The ground of a certain rich man yielded plentifully. And he thought within himself, saying, 'What shall I do, since I have no room to store my crops?' So he said, 'I will do this: I will pull down my barns and build greater, and there I will store all my crops and my goods. And I will say to my soul, "Soul, you have many goods laid up for many years, take your ease; eat, drink, and be merry."' But God said to him, 'Fool! This night your soul will be required of you; then whose will those things be which you have provided?' So is he who lays up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God." Luke 12:15-21.
Are you ready for eternity? Have you put as much time and effort in your eternal home as you have in your earthly home and possessions that you can't take with you when God calls you home?
Today I realize there is a line most people don't speak of. That line where some people feel if you cross into living for and serving God that you don't get to have fun anymore. I actually had someone tell me they couldn't do the "religion thing" because they "didn't want to feel guilty all the time." WOW! This couldn't be further from the truth! Christians have tons of fun and, the thing is, we can have fun with a completely clear conscience. We don't need drugs or tons of alcohol to give us a high or fog our brains, because the high you feel when you worship God and are close to Him and witness His miracles first hand is soooo much better than anything you can buy! Now, I'm not perfect. Far from it! I've tasted sin. But what I have now is so much better, I assure you. There really is no describing it. You have to feel it for yourself. I can tell you firsthand, I feel no guilt. God washed my sin and guilt away. Only joy. Pure joy. You should try it.
This is also the day I confirmed my appointment with the Mayo clinic. August 9th is the big day. Also found out the Mayo is out of network for my insurance. Ouch! I'm still weighing my options. Every morning when I wake up with hives and see what the steroids are doing to my body, I search for plane tickets online. Then, by evening when the hives have faded, I start thinking about $$$. I just don't know what to do right now, but God will direct my path, that I do know. I hope and pray to find a doctor here that will figure me out so I don't have to go 13 hrs away. We will see.
"And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind. For all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. But seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you." Luke 12:29-31.
"This is the day that the Lord hath made. I will rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24
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